crash and burn
you know how after drinking for an extended period of time you start to develop a tolerance? i mean, you start to know your limits over time. how come it’s not the same (at least for me) with my attachment issues? every time i spend a good amount of time with someone i think i have feelings for them. for the first time ever in this situation i haven’t seen the other person in quite awhile and while part of me is dying to see them again (her curious avoidance is helpful/hurtful), the other part of me wants to chillout so i can see if i really like her or not. at this point, however, i’m realizing i do find her attractive and think she’s cool and all, but she’s not for me. i’m admitting to myself that i’m just being typical, stupid me.
aside from that, a girl i used to dig at a former workplace, whom at the time was seeing someone, is currently single according to my sources. that particular source will attempt to play cupid and set us up (so she says). i feel like a dumb, little kid again, but you know i’m looking forward to it…just not as much as you’d like to think. you see, my new job is currently distracting me. i made $180 in tips my first day and $200 today. this is quite exciting and relieving at the same time.
after work today i bought new dr. schols shoes, socks, pants, and undershirts. fuck yes. then i had a wonderful dinner at my parent’s house (my dad is on this trying-new-recipes binge). afterwards, i want to 2 different quick stops to look for these grandma’s cookies i’ve been craving but neither of them had them, even though the website said they were supposed to. hmph. the night ended with a movie: the final destination in 3d with david, ricky, and some hoes. good times. now i must rest for another big dollar day tomorrow. i really like working at the airport. oops, i’m supposed to take my server test tomorrow. pfffffffffffft.
